Well I was down a total of 15.6 pounds - then I went up .8 (which is nothing) - and then I missed two WW meetings. So this Thursday I will go back, take the consequences of not being totally on the program over the last two weeks, and move forward.
I am still not pregnant. With my husband not working we had not really been trying since our honeymoon in October . . . but on the other hand, I realized this weekend that it has been almost two years since I took my last birth control pill.
April 1, 2009 I took my last pill and on April 5 AF arrived and we starting trying to conceive. That works out to about 26 cycles, and not even a hint of sperm meeting egg. Even if we subtract the cycles where I was planning our wedding, and tried not to have sex around when I thought I might ovulate, that is still 10 cycles where we had a chance.
I have pretty regular cycles, I know I ovulate through temping, ovulation predictor tests and my fertility monitor - so why is this not working? I know I need to get back to a healthier weight, and I have always suspected I may have endometriosis, but lots of women get pregnant with these issues.
I am really starting to think this may have more to do with my husband than me. I know that he has issues with anejaculation (as in he does not finish and orgasm) when he is stressed or not feeling well - maybe this is a bigger problem than I thought?
My plan going forward is to really try (ie lots of sex around the time I ovulate) for the next few months, and if I am not pregnant by our first anniversary we can get some testing done.
I am going to try to relax and just have fun - that is supposed to work, right?
Monday, March 28, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Working - the good and bad
Well my darling husband is now fully employed again! It is such a relief.
The next couple of weeks, until he receives his first pay cheque will be difficult, but after that it will much less stressful.
It's not too far from home, but the bus schedule is a little off in that area, so he ends up having to leave the house at 7:00am and gets to work just after 8:00am when he starts at 8:30am. Oh well, I guess it is time for him to eat his breakfast.
It also is only an average paying job, we were hoping (way back in November), for a new job that paid better than his old one, but at this point we are not going to be picky.
If only I could find a better job. I had yet another stupid disagreement with my boss, and all because I was doing what my manager here in Calgary had asked of me based on the information provided. We need to communicate better as a team. We also need to write proper notes in our database - and also READ the notes that are there. Why would you continue to contact a client if someone else already has? Urgh. I just really hate feeling like I did something wrong, when I am really only 10% to blame. The rest of the issue belongs to my manager, the other person working on the same account in Edmonton, and our VP of sales.
I do not get paid enough to put up with this crap.
But when would I have time to find and interview for another job? And if I do manage to get over those hurdles, what about the whole plan to get pregnant? I would lose out on maternity benefits if I started a new job, and then left on leave before a year.
I just want to have a baby and then find another job. Sounds so easy when you write it like that. Sigh.
The next couple of weeks, until he receives his first pay cheque will be difficult, but after that it will much less stressful.
It's not too far from home, but the bus schedule is a little off in that area, so he ends up having to leave the house at 7:00am and gets to work just after 8:00am when he starts at 8:30am. Oh well, I guess it is time for him to eat his breakfast.
It also is only an average paying job, we were hoping (way back in November), for a new job that paid better than his old one, but at this point we are not going to be picky.
If only I could find a better job. I had yet another stupid disagreement with my boss, and all because I was doing what my manager here in Calgary had asked of me based on the information provided. We need to communicate better as a team. We also need to write proper notes in our database - and also READ the notes that are there. Why would you continue to contact a client if someone else already has? Urgh. I just really hate feeling like I did something wrong, when I am really only 10% to blame. The rest of the issue belongs to my manager, the other person working on the same account in Edmonton, and our VP of sales.
I do not get paid enough to put up with this crap.
But when would I have time to find and interview for another job? And if I do manage to get over those hurdles, what about the whole plan to get pregnant? I would lose out on maternity benefits if I started a new job, and then left on leave before a year.
I just want to have a baby and then find another job. Sounds so easy when you write it like that. Sigh.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Unemployment Drama
Well I have been back at WW for 5 weeks now and I have lost a total of 11.4 pounds - this is just a bit more than 2 pounds a week, which is excellent progress.
My husband had another job interview last week and I am just crossing every finger and toe that he gets this job. He should hear about it one way or another early next week.
He lost his job at the beginning of November. Well actually he quit because he thought he had a new opportunity lined up, and then it fell through while we were on our honeymoon. He tried to talk to his former company about working longer or keeping his job, but his boss had already processed the record of employment and she was upset about the small amount of notice.
It all started when he took off a morning for "an appointment at the bank" that was really the first step in interviewing for a new job. Since we were leaving on our honeymoon in just a few days, he stayed longer and had a one on one interview. So he was late getting to work.
Then he was feeling guilty. If he got the new job it would start the week after we got back from our honeymoon. So being a really nice guy, the Friday before we left on our cruise, he went in to talk to his boss and ended up giving his 2 weeks notice.
Except he was going on vacation, so it really ended up being 4 days notice (we had booked the Monday off of work after traveling all day Sunday). So whether he had talked to his boss before the honeymoon or not, it was the same amount of notice. Urgh !
Then he got an email while we were on the trip that he did not get the new job. Crap. On top of all of this, his old job would not pay him for the vacation as he left 4 days after getting back. Double Crap.
Looking back there are so many other ways I wish my husband would have handled this, but you cannot go back in time.
So for three months he has been looking for work. He has gone on about 5 interviews, but no results yet.
At this point, I don't care if it it temp work or part time - he just needs a job.
Sigh. Life is just so complicated sometimes - all because my husband was just trying to be considerate and a nice guy.
My husband had another job interview last week and I am just crossing every finger and toe that he gets this job. He should hear about it one way or another early next week.
He lost his job at the beginning of November. Well actually he quit because he thought he had a new opportunity lined up, and then it fell through while we were on our honeymoon. He tried to talk to his former company about working longer or keeping his job, but his boss had already processed the record of employment and she was upset about the small amount of notice.
It all started when he took off a morning for "an appointment at the bank" that was really the first step in interviewing for a new job. Since we were leaving on our honeymoon in just a few days, he stayed longer and had a one on one interview. So he was late getting to work.
Then he was feeling guilty. If he got the new job it would start the week after we got back from our honeymoon. So being a really nice guy, the Friday before we left on our cruise, he went in to talk to his boss and ended up giving his 2 weeks notice.
Except he was going on vacation, so it really ended up being 4 days notice (we had booked the Monday off of work after traveling all day Sunday). So whether he had talked to his boss before the honeymoon or not, it was the same amount of notice. Urgh !
Then he got an email while we were on the trip that he did not get the new job. Crap. On top of all of this, his old job would not pay him for the vacation as he left 4 days after getting back. Double Crap.
Looking back there are so many other ways I wish my husband would have handled this, but you cannot go back in time.
So for three months he has been looking for work. He has gone on about 5 interviews, but no results yet.
At this point, I don't care if it it temp work or part time - he just needs a job.
Sigh. Life is just so complicated sometimes - all because my husband was just trying to be considerate and a nice guy.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Swimming along
Well I am doing well. I have lost almost 4 pounds on WW and I hope to increase that number tomorrow. It is great how easily I have slipped back into portion control and counting points. It is a comfortable hat.
I have also started to go to the pool. My neighbour, L, and her husband A, got married in February of 2010 and they are also trying to conceive their first child. She is also doing WW, but the online program. She invited me to go to the pool with her one evening, and I forgot how much I love to swim. For the first couple of times I was just swimming laps - but I am going to try out deep water aerobics tonight. It is a start in getting some exercise in everyday.
We have been having issues with our wireless router at home, and we only got it in September. I am not sure what is going on but I tried a bunch of different things, and nothing has worked so far. So unfortunately we have to keep the laptop hooked up to the internet with a cord. Hopefully my husband can call the help line and get this figured out. I love him but I am the more technologically savvy member of this partnership. He is the one who has more time though as he is not working . . . which I do not think I have mentioned yet. I will go into that another day.
Right now it is back to work for another couple of hours and then home to eat the yummy stew that has been simmering away in our slow cooker all day. Delicious.
I have also started to go to the pool. My neighbour, L, and her husband A, got married in February of 2010 and they are also trying to conceive their first child. She is also doing WW, but the online program. She invited me to go to the pool with her one evening, and I forgot how much I love to swim. For the first couple of times I was just swimming laps - but I am going to try out deep water aerobics tonight. It is a start in getting some exercise in everyday.
We have been having issues with our wireless router at home, and we only got it in September. I am not sure what is going on but I tried a bunch of different things, and nothing has worked so far. So unfortunately we have to keep the laptop hooked up to the internet with a cord. Hopefully my husband can call the help line and get this figured out. I love him but I am the more technologically savvy member of this partnership. He is the one who has more time though as he is not working . . . which I do not think I have mentioned yet. I will go into that another day.
Right now it is back to work for another couple of hours and then home to eat the yummy stew that has been simmering away in our slow cooker all day. Delicious.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
1/1/11
It is very neat that today is January 1, 2011 - so 1/1/11. I like when the numbers are the same like that.
It is also Cycle Day 11, as in the 11 Day of my menstrual cycle, and all signs point to me ovulating tomorrow. I don't really want to get pregnant this month. My BMI is at 45 right now, and I just do not think it would be healthy for me or a baby. I am working on this and I know that I can lose weight on the WW program, it will just take time. I just need to figure out home to get some exercise everyday as it is too bloody cold outside to walk right now. I have a couple of videos, I just need to get off my lazy butt.
It is also Cycle Day 11, as in the 11 Day of my menstrual cycle, and all signs point to me ovulating tomorrow. I don't really want to get pregnant this month. My BMI is at 45 right now, and I just do not think it would be healthy for me or a baby. I am working on this and I know that I can lose weight on the WW program, it will just take time. I just need to figure out home to get some exercise everyday as it is too bloody cold outside to walk right now. I have a couple of videos, I just need to get off my lazy butt.
Monday, January 10, 2011
It's 2011, yep it is
There is so much going on in my head right now, and I finally realized that this would be a perfect place to unload some of my thoughts.
OK, so my first thought is that I need to blog more in 2011. It's not so much a resolution as it is a goal. It should not be hard to write a couple of posts a month.
I started back at Weight Watchers on last Thursday. So far it is going well. I like the new Points Plus program as I get to eat lots of fresh fruit (they are zero points), and since we now figure out points using protein/carbs/fiber/fat, I have 48 points a day. They are different points, but I still love that I have more.
My grandmother, my dad's mom, my only living grandparent was in the hospital. She flew to Edmonton on Dec 17 an was supposed to fly out of Edmonton to Victoria on Dec 20. The whole family was gathering at the new home in Victoria for Christmas. Well it did not go as planned. On the night of Dec 17, my grandmother slipped on the stairs, twisted, did not fall, but did manage to break her leg. She had surgery on Dec 19 to place a pin on her femur.
It has not been going well. He leg is fine, and healing nicely, but all these other issues cropped up. Her back is a mess, has been for years, but it contributed to the broken leg. Her stomach was bothering her from the pain medication her doctor prescribed for her back pain. So she was not eating. She is still not eating well. She has lost a lot of muscle tone.
Now, she is in assisted living back in Medicine Hat. They discharged her from the hospital on Jan 7 and flew her home with barely an hour's notice. Urghhhh. So my mom had to travel down there in horrible weather and will now try to get her eating and up moving and better enough to fly her back to Edmonton. Then my parent's can set her up in their house with home care.
It's complicated and aggravating and my grandmother is being so stubborn (not eating and fighting everyone).
I just want my grandmother to be there at my cousin's wedding this year. I want her to be able to hold her first great grandchild, hopefully mine, after I finally get pregnant. I want her to move out to Victoria with my parents (which was the plan all along).
Hopefully my mom will have got her eating again when I talk to her today or tomorrow.
OK, so my first thought is that I need to blog more in 2011. It's not so much a resolution as it is a goal. It should not be hard to write a couple of posts a month.
I started back at Weight Watchers on last Thursday. So far it is going well. I like the new Points Plus program as I get to eat lots of fresh fruit (they are zero points), and since we now figure out points using protein/carbs/fiber/fat, I have 48 points a day. They are different points, but I still love that I have more.
My grandmother, my dad's mom, my only living grandparent was in the hospital. She flew to Edmonton on Dec 17 an was supposed to fly out of Edmonton to Victoria on Dec 20. The whole family was gathering at the new home in Victoria for Christmas. Well it did not go as planned. On the night of Dec 17, my grandmother slipped on the stairs, twisted, did not fall, but did manage to break her leg. She had surgery on Dec 19 to place a pin on her femur.
It has not been going well. He leg is fine, and healing nicely, but all these other issues cropped up. Her back is a mess, has been for years, but it contributed to the broken leg. Her stomach was bothering her from the pain medication her doctor prescribed for her back pain. So she was not eating. She is still not eating well. She has lost a lot of muscle tone.
Now, she is in assisted living back in Medicine Hat. They discharged her from the hospital on Jan 7 and flew her home with barely an hour's notice. Urghhhh. So my mom had to travel down there in horrible weather and will now try to get her eating and up moving and better enough to fly her back to Edmonton. Then my parent's can set her up in their house with home care.
It's complicated and aggravating and my grandmother is being so stubborn (not eating and fighting everyone).
I just want my grandmother to be there at my cousin's wedding this year. I want her to be able to hold her first great grandchild, hopefully mine, after I finally get pregnant. I want her to move out to Victoria with my parents (which was the plan all along).
Hopefully my mom will have got her eating again when I talk to her today or tomorrow.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Happy Belated Birthday to Me !!
On Wednesday I turned 33 - overall it was a pretty great birthday/birthday week.
We had friends over On October 1st to watch the Oilers and Flames play preseason hockey. The Oilers lost but I got to wear my new jersey (an awesome present from my husband), and han gout with a great group of people until about 2:00am.
That Saturday, after sleeping in, we managed to buy a few groceries and then we just stayed home. We played a new game (also a birthday present from RW), and watched a movie.
Sunday we met up with our Calgary neighbours/friends again for breakfast. Then we went shopping (under bed storage makes me happy).
Monday after work we went out for an early birthday dinner at Boston Pizza.
So by then time we got to my actual birthday, I had already celebrated it a few times.
I actually managed to pick up some hamburgers to cook for dinner, go downtown and help prepare for a breakfast work event the next day, have Shaw over to fix the phone/internet signal, have birthday cake, and get our passports signed by our guarantor.
Yesterday, while I had to get up at 5:00am (and then slept in until 5:45am b/c my alarm did not go off), I got a nice free breakfast, listened to an interesting panel talk about business in Calgary & Alberta, got a nice free lunch and was only really at work for a total of three hours.
Today my husband and I got our passports sent in, they should be ready for pick-up on Oct 14, and they already called our guarantor and everything looks good.
So, it has been a busy week, but a pretty great one.
We had friends over On October 1st to watch the Oilers and Flames play preseason hockey. The Oilers lost but I got to wear my new jersey (an awesome present from my husband), and han gout with a great group of people until about 2:00am.
That Saturday, after sleeping in, we managed to buy a few groceries and then we just stayed home. We played a new game (also a birthday present from RW), and watched a movie.
Sunday we met up with our Calgary neighbours/friends again for breakfast. Then we went shopping (under bed storage makes me happy).
Monday after work we went out for an early birthday dinner at Boston Pizza.
So by then time we got to my actual birthday, I had already celebrated it a few times.
I actually managed to pick up some hamburgers to cook for dinner, go downtown and help prepare for a breakfast work event the next day, have Shaw over to fix the phone/internet signal, have birthday cake, and get our passports signed by our guarantor.
Yesterday, while I had to get up at 5:00am (and then slept in until 5:45am b/c my alarm did not go off), I got a nice free breakfast, listened to an interesting panel talk about business in Calgary & Alberta, got a nice free lunch and was only really at work for a total of three hours.
Today my husband and I got our passports sent in, they should be ready for pick-up on Oct 14, and they already called our guarantor and everything looks good.
So, it has been a busy week, but a pretty great one.
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