Things are not really improving. They are not getting worse either. We are just getting through each day.
My husband and I had another serious talk last Monday, January 7. Nothing much was decided. We are still not happy, but we aren't really doing anything to work on our marriage. He leaves for work just after I do everyday and doesn't come home until sometime between 7:00pm and 9:00pm. He won't even touch me anymore. I need some human contact. He doesn't want to officially separate and split up all our things. I am just tired of living in limbo. He wants to spend some real time apart, not just the few days that we had away from each other at Christmas. I am going to head up to Edmonton for a week and work out of our head office.
I have made some phone calls about counseling. I just need to stop procrastinating and actually book an appointment. Even if it ends up just being for me.
Weight is still going down, but I need to start adding some form of exercise. I have a couple of games for the Wii that I bought right before I broke my ankle in May. Going to pull those out and give it a real go. I heard a really good suggestion in my last Weight Watchers meeting about preparing the next day's meal the evening before (while doing dishes, cleaning up etc). It just means planning meals a week ahead. It worked well on Monday. I had the slow cooker going all evening and Tuesday I came home and just had to heat up dinner. Wednesday I just cooked up something quick on the spot, and I will do the same tonight, but I have everything planned for another slow cooker meal on Friday. One step at a time and I will make planning dinners into a routine (I wonder if this is going to be one of the routines we work on at WW in an upcoming month).
My course registration is paid, I am booked to do an orientation phone call on Tuesday, and my materials are being delivered to my parent's house in Edmonton on Monday. I can't wait to get started on the program.
Life is moving forward, it is just both too slow and too fast at the same time.